I'm ready baby :)

When I was pregnant with Roman, towards the end I was so scared. Not for the pain but scared for my life to change.

I couldn't help but dread the whole "you'll never sleep again and you'll be changing loads and loads of diapers for years to come."

I was content for him to stay right where he was.

So I waited, he was born 5 days past his due date and we had to get me started because my body wasn't progressing at all.

I had no idea what I was doing.

I assumed the nurses and Dr. would help me through everything but no no, that's not always the case.

Bringing him home was scary.

I honestly didn't know what to do with him.

I remember that first day home so clearly.

We brought him inside and he was sleeping in his carseat.

We put him down, sat on the couches and we both said "what now?"

I loved him so but a huge part of me was so incredibly lost.

That first night I put him in his basinet and thought, "okay little man, go to sleep"

No idea what to do.

He taught me how to be a mother.

I'm forever grateful that it was him that taught me.

It gives us a bond that we still have and he has a special place in my heart because we had to figure it out together.



And then this little lady came along.

And I was sooo ready for her to come out.

I knew what I was doing and wanted to get the show on the road!

I wanted my little newborn here to snuggle and love on because I knew what joy they bring and I was balls to the wall excited.

Her first days were heaven for me.

We brought here home and I didn't want to put her down.

 I would want to be nice and share her with Nick and give her to him and shortly after he got some lovin in he would set her down.

I'd always say "if you don't want to hold her I do! I was trying to be nice and share"

She was like a little sleeping pill.

Whenever I was holding her I couldn't help but dose off and it was the same with Nick.

I felt confident.

Happy.

And crazy in love with my little family.

I am so excited to get my little boy here.

Not just so I can be done with the misery that is pregnancy :)

But to be able to bask in that amazing heavenly feeling of being a mom once again.