Man oh man.
I am too young to know what I'm doing in reguards to raising my children - do ya feel me?!
I always assumed that my mom knew what she was doing because I never remember her struggling. She just always knew what to do.
I assumed that when I became a mother I would magically know everything.
3 kids later and I'm pretty sure I have the baby thing down pat.
But the thing that I didn't realize is that I don't have all the answers.
I dont' magically know everything.
I didn't realize that I would have to tell my children that my mom died and why.
I didn't realize that i would need tell my son at such a young age that not everyone belives in the same thing but we try to understand and love one another anyway.
I understood that parenting would be filled with time outs and changing diapers.
But I honeslty didn't realize that I am literally helping shape a human being into what they will be in this life.
Not in the future when I will magically have all the answers, but now.
So how do I do that when I still feel like a 19 year old girl?
Like who gave me permission to help guide another person in this life when I don't know exactly how?
What I do realize is that I have a lot of growing and learning to do.
And everyday I am changing and growing right alongside my tiny loves.
Even though I don't have all the answers, I got a lot of love and that's gotta count for something right?
Right?!?!
:)
3 comments:
that's exactly how I feel--although I'm pretty sure you are better prepared as a Mom because you weren't afraid of kids before you gave birth to yours, unlike me.
I've never even seen you with your kids and I know you're a spectacular Mom! The thing I tell myself is, we don't have to be perfect, we can make mistakes. As long as our kids know we love them no matter what then we've done our job.
I think kids help everyone be a better person because the responsibility is so big. I love the pics of Nixon. And happy anniversary!!
I hear you!
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